A Little Bit-A This, A Little Bit-A That

My Sweet Rebekah

This past Tuesday would have been my sweet Rebekah's 2nd birthday! It's so hard to believe that two years have gone by. Last year I had a 1 month old and so Rebekah's 1st birthday was actually filled with alot of joy and happiness as we enjoyed our healthy little Presley! This year was actually a bit different. I was surprised that I was a little bit sadder. It wasn't unbearable or anything, just a downer (although on the very same day we learned that our good friends would bury another child in less than 2 years so that made the tears flow without a problem). I definitely hugged Presley a little more and alot tighter. I thanked God for her more than the usual and I praised Him for allowing her to be in my life. Children are a gift from God. They are miracles that we should never, ever take for granted.

My Ongoing Struggle

I swore I would never gain the weight that I worked so hard to lose a few years back. I have been so frustrated that I have to work at this again. I know exactly what has to happen and yet I can't seem to do it. I'm not sure what my problem is. I can't figure out if I just don't want it bad enough or I don't want to work for it or maybe both. Not good. Why don't I want it bad enough to make the change? It's not healthy to criticize myself everytime I look in the mirror. I've been there before and all it did was make me hate myself and end up with a nasty eating disorder (exercise bulimia). Sometimes I wonder if part of it is because I've felt content with myself for so long that I just plain forget to do what has to be done. I can't find the daily motivation that it takes...and I guarantee that if I don't have that determination every minute of the day, it's going to be repeat failure. I have a good day/bad day pattern and it always equals failure. UGH. So, if you're reading this and you know what's missing, please tell me. I want success again. I despise, hate, detest, abhor, loathe (you get it) this circle of letdown.

Friends

I have the most amazing circle of friends.  I love them so much. We are all beginning the adventure of parenthood and I'm so stinkin' excited that we get to share it! The best part about my friends is that their relationship with God is high priority so we keep each other going through open conversation, encouragement and prayer.  We have heart-to-heart talks and then we laugh until we turn blue. We can have a glass of wine (or 2) and talk about our marriages (including ALL aspects)...and then of course laugh some more. I just couldn't ask for better people in my life. I am soooo soo blessed to have people to rely on that honestly care. That's hard to come by these days. THANK YOU FRIENDS! I LOVE YOU!!

We're off for the long weekend to camp. Hurray for camping season! Here's hoping for decent weather...for me that means 60/70's and no humidity or rain!! haha...not looking too good! Oh well! It's a break from routine and I'll take it!
HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!

The Kelster